Living Waters Testimony
Christopher Lewis – Intern – Social Media/Content
”Jesus answered and said to her, “Whoever drinks of this water will thirst again, but whoever drinks of the water that I shall give him will never thirst. But the water that I shall give him will become in him a fountain of water springing up into everlasting life.”John 4:13-14 NKJV
If there’s one thing that I’ve come to realize over the past year or two, even if I don’t walk it out as often as I should, it’s that these “things” we run to, things of false pleasures and sin, will never satisfy us like Jesus will. He offers us the living water we all desperately need.
The wounds that need healing can only be healed by living water, not sin. The holes in my life can only be filled by living water, not sin. The trauma I need to confront can only be confronted with the help of Jesus and the gift of living water; I can’t run to sin and numb the pain. The water I’m trying to drink will never satisfy me like the living water Jesus offers!
I’m like the Samaritan woman. I’m thirsty. I’m longing for something to quench my need in life. I know the gift Jesus is offering. However, I wrestle and I wrestle and I wrestle with it. I’m reminded of scripture: sin is pleasurable but yet only for a season. Why do I wrestle with the gift though? That’s what I have to ask myself, and that is what I’ve asked myself a lot these past couple years. It’s something I asked myself a lot the past 6-7 months.
My healing journey has only started, but it took a nose dive into that water of healing last October of 2023. I joined the program “Living Waters” in Atlanta, Ga. The confrontation of my past that took place along with addressing deep wounds, traumas, and pains of today even were all a vital part to this season of healing and this program. If I wanted to get the most out of this program, I knew I had to confront tough topics that I couldn’t face before. I knew it had to be done. The beautiful thing is that Jesus was with me the entire time. My brothers were with me, walking with me in the battle the entire time. My group leaders were receiving of my tears and pains the entire time. There was such liberation, freedom, love, hope, encouragement, tons of prayer, and truth. The glimpse of “living water” I saw for 6 months at Living Waters reminded me that nothing else will satisfy the longings of my heart except for Jesus. This program truly made an impact on my life and just like I testified then at the end: Not only does Jesus want my healing, but I’m beginning to want my healing too.
The sexual perversion that has plagued my life since I was a little boy is being uprooted, slowly but surely. It’s definitely a process! But, my hope is in Jesus! I won’t give in. I may struggle, but I refuse to throw in the towel.
To those struggling or wrestling with something especially sexual sin, know that you’re winning if you’re struggling. Sounds odd doesn’t it? If you’re struggling, that means you’re wrestling with the devil. Get down in the trenches and fight! Be strong and courageous! The army of the Lord is with you, cheering you on, warring WITH you in spirit, but you must fight. If you fall, get back up. If you fall again, get back up. If you fall a third time, get back up. If you fall, get. back. up.
Satan wants you to stay down if you fall; he doesn’t want you to get back up, but soon the strength of standing back up will overpower the fall and you will win “this” fight. The fight will always continue but you will be stronger than you’ve been before, and this time you will make him pay by the power of your testimony. The testimony of Jesus is the spirit of prophecy and I prophesy that you will win!
Am I still fighting? Yes. Is it a struggle? Yes. But that means I’m winning! I have so much more to do and further to go in my journey, and there are things I’m still walking out, but I’m victorious because of Jesus. He offered me living water, and I’m beginning to drink from it. I want to leave you with lyrics from a song I wrote several years back that has now been a fight song for many in spiritual war:
“When my God comes through,He brings on the thunder roaring like a lion, roaring like a lion. In the heat of the moment when the flame arises, roaring like a lion, roaring like a lion.The atmosphere is shifting, a storm of glory is calling, the Holy Spirit is falling on Your people. They’re standing with You. The One. The Way. The Truth. The Light. We are standing on the front lines.We’re ready to fight. The enemy may win the battle, but we’ll won the war. Cause with God we are victorious;He has the roar of roars!
YAHWEH!”